Hi all,

I just wanted to say that, after all these years of maintaining this blog (since 2005 to 2010), I've decided to stop posting on this blog from now onwards.

Having matured over the last few years, I've realised that some of the posts were really too immature and childish of me. As such, I would be starting a new blog on Wordpress instead so as to separate and distinguish my older self from my younger one.

I would not be disclosing that blog's url or name at all, since it would really show my inner thoughts and feelings.

However, it's still open to public so you really know me well enough, you'd probably know how I would name the blog and even identify me from the style of writing. Just a small clue, I've used a relatively new KAT-TUN's song's name from the album CHAIN, and in no part of the blog is my name being used.

Good luck in your future endeavours, and may we catch up again sometime.

Sayonara, tomo yo.

Dulcia.

Oops. Didn't update since Dec... Had wanted to change the skin on my birthday, but I was kinda overwhelmed by school. Then, I had decided to change it on Kame's birthday instead, but... Sigh. Never mind. I had changed it in the end, at long last. And I've decided that this year's skin is gonna be Kame's theme! :D

Wow. I just can't believe that it's already March of 2010! That means I'm a Sec 4 for like 2 months now, and 16 years old too. Hehe. But man, life sure is hard as a Sec 4. I haven't got the time to even play my guitar leisurely now.

Just finished Common Test, and I'm in a great mood! I was quite stressed the past few weeks, I even made a record! Two separate MCs in a single week. One on Thur (18 Feb) and another on Fri (26 Feb), and yeah, I skipped HCL CT! HAHA. So I know my score, VR! :P

I only have my E Maths, Physics and English papers back, and boy, look at the standard deviation of my score! I was really really really shocked when I got my E Maths paper back. I was stunned, and I just went, "WOW!" 50/50!!! MY FIRST SINCE PRIMARY 2! Haha. My parents even thought I was just joking, till I showed them the paper, haha.

Anyway, enough of CT. Lots of things had happened in the period when I didn't update...

Like me getting closer to my laogong and BENGS. Haha. I really feel happy being with them now... :D We do crazy stuff sometimes, but I really felt that those times were quite heartwarming... Those were some of the stress-free times I had, and I do treasure them alot. Friends are important to me, and I want these ties to go on forever... Is it too much to ask for? I will never know what would happen again though. Is it my problem or it's just that those people I was close with would desert me after sometime? Can't I just be happy?

Before that, I had to endure people's attitude problems and "black face". Sigh, imagine how stressed I was. I tried to tolerate it, but I just could not take it anymore. If you are in a bad mood, you should not affect the others around you. We don't owe you a living, and we certainly do not need to do things according to your mood. Sigh.

BENGS = COOL. :D

Had bought KAT-TUN's latest single, Love yourself and their concert 2009 DVD, BREAK THE RECORDS, and boy it was OH MY GOD SPLENDID DONE!!! Love it soooooooo much. They are just plain sexy. I even heard them on FM 933 too. Haha. Imagine me jumping about when I heard them. It's just so rare to do so; I can only listen to them on Japan's radio, which I do have access to. YAY. Kame's new drama, Yamato Nadeshiko Shichihenge, Yamanade in short, is a great comedy. Though it's not as funny as his other one, One Pound Gospel, the stuff he does in it is sooooooooo cool! He cut his hair on air, and it became REAL SHORT. It reminds me of his younger days back in 2004. He cross-dressed, and he looked sooooo cute in them too! Especially the school girl one! Yesterday's episode 8 had him crying hs heart out, cause his mum had said nasty stuff to him and even had an anxiety attack, due to girls harassing Kame's character. He cannot meet his mum ever again, for the fear of triggering these attacks, and it broke his heart. Aww. I almost cried too. :P

Had band today, and I was slacking the whole time... Fell asleep during practice, and was really restless the whole day. All because I had no instrument. :( It was sent for repair. But at least I got to play the alto and tenor sax today. ZA and Lijiao was kind enough to lend them to me, though Lijiao's was actually Siyuan's. Haha. After band, I went out with Yifan, Laogong, Leshan, Chingyee and Huichoo, mostly to get presents for some people. By 7pm, I think, only Xiuyi and me were left, and we ate dinner together, and had went around searching for scores to buy. Haha. Walked till 9pm plus, and we went home. So here I am now, after my shower and slacking, to update my blog. :P

I found these lyrics to be very meaningful, it feels as if it describes the feeling in me... Haha. Oh well, I think I will end here for now. Still got lots of homework to do!!! :P

KAME~
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Seishun Amiigo: (by Shuji to Akira)
My cellphone rings, and a terrible premonition flashes through my heart
Calm down, mi amigo*

I'm in a mess, help me, those guys are chasing me
Maybe this is the end, mi amigo

My phone died, cutting me off from you

Yes, the two of us were always one, at home we were invincible, weren't we?
Yes, we'd longed to come to this town for a long time
For some reason, I remember the scenery, embracing the beautiful sky the day we left

When I reached a dark alleyway, you were crouching there
I'm sorry I didn't get there in time

I can't keep the promise we made the day it all came crashing down
But I'm so happy you came

You held my shaking hand tight

Yes, when we came to this city we felt like we could have anything we wanted
Yes, we left our home behind without looking back to pursue our big dream, smiling the whole time
We dreamed that together we could chase after a future that wouldn't change

Yes, the two of us were always one, at home we were invincible, weren't we?
Yes, we'd longed to come to this town for a long time
For some reason, I remember the scenery, embracing the beautiful sky the day we left

As mentioned before, I had went on to watch Gokusen The Movie with Qianyu on Tue, 1/12 at Iluma!

IT WAS GREAT! 素晴らしかっただぞ！I was so engrossed in the whole movie... Of course, the fact that Kame was in it helps. Hehe. Yankumi (Nakama Yukie) was really cute, and her words really touched me. And Ryu (Kame) was so cool, even though he is a trainee teacher now, he is still the old Ryu we know in 2005's Gokusen 2. :D I don't really have a favourite part, but the part that had me jumping up was when Ryu shielded Yankumi, pushing her away when the baddies were going to hit her hard using some sort of baton, therefore getting hurt himself since he was hit HARD on the HEAD. OMG! :D

I'm so going to buy the DVD, and KAT-TUN's Live Tour 2009 BREAK THE RECORDS. HA.

Before watching the movie, we had a go at the arcade there. I played Taiko no Tatsujin, and totally sucked, though I was happy to be playing Daite Senyourita by Yamapi. I think I fared so much better on the PSP and DS. Sigh. We ate dinner at Billy Bombers, and it was so nice too. After watching Gokusen, I had the itch to go find Gokusen 2's DVD again... So I ended up ordering from Poh Kim. Haha.

Spent the next few days lazing around and playing computer...

I've got my JLPT (Japanese Language Proficiency Test) Level 3 test on Sunday, so on Friday, I studied a little Japanese... On Saturday, I played a little computer and we went out... To Bugis to collect my DVDs! I bought Shibatora too, since there is an offer going on, two for $50. :D Then we went Raffles City to eat at Shokudo... Man, this is the first time I didn't really eat anything really Japanese... :P When I reached home, I studied a little more Japanese. Like 10 mins? Hehe.

On Sunday, I woke up a little earlier than usual, and had wanted to study a little more... But I ended up watching Shibatora instead. Lol. Went to SMU to take my JLPT test, and reached there early. Ended up sitting on a bench studying, then a man and a woman came over and began chatting with me. Lol. They were in the same language school as me too, though they are of a lower level course. I was in Pre-Advance 3 before I quit, while they are in PA-1. Haha. After saying good luck to each other, we went into the room. I was in the same room as the man. :D

The first test was about Kanji and Reading plus Vocabulary. Well, the paper was generally easy. Then, we had listening comprehension, I should say that after such a long time of not having such practice, I did rather well? Generally easy for this paper. The last and the longest paper was this one on Reading plus Grammar. It spans about 70 mins, while the previous two was 35 mins each. Both papers were of 100 marks, while this one is 200 marks. I find this to be one of the easiest papers, since I read a lot of manga and novels in Japanese, I was able to understand the passage easily (comprehension passages)... I mean, it's like my elementary practice passage! Hopefully, I don't have any careless mistakes, and am able to pass with flying colours!

Can't say much about the paper or its contents, not allowed to.

Today, Yifan accompanied me to the hairdressers'. I had my fringe cut short, but it turned out to be like bangs. Argh. At least it's slanting, as to what I had stated. I had wanted to have a really slanting fringe, oh never mind. My hair was trimmed shorter, so my head is relatively light now, haha. Anyway, Yifan and me chatted lots today... And I just got some inspiration and thoughts to dwell on.

彼氏ができたら、もっと幸せになれるかな？一人で、なんか寂しくないの？
でも、この私、誰にもほしくないわ。そうでしょう。
彼氏がいるならいいね。
でもコレはありえない現実だ。

No, I'm not going to translate that. :P Find out the meaning if you want. Come to think of it, it's pretty private. Argh. Never mind.

LOL. I realised that I have not updated in months. Oops. Haha.

Lots of things happened anyway, like the EOY papers, and then Headstart, next was the Sec 3 annual camp and then it was AFA'09.

Sec 3 camp was fun! I loved the time we spent as a class. The first day we all reached school pretty early, but it took us a while before we could board the bus. We also came to know who we are sharing rooms with, but it totally took us unaware! After all, Ms Tan had lost the list we wrote on, so she had to rearrange everything herself. I thought I was sure sharing with Kaiwen, but in the end, I was with Chingyee, not that I'm complaining... Teehee.

We spent rest of the trip touring places that bore me, while some others were interesting enough. We had our meals at restaurants, though not all were good. The best ones had to be on the last day, where we were able to eat cereal prawns, steam fish and even roasted duck. Much better! We did go shopping at Palawan on the second night, and I bought a new pair of sunglasses and a shirt! Had wanted to buy a vest there, but since it cost about RM99, I was reluctant. After all, I don't a lot of cash left and I can't just go to an ATM and draw money right? Man, I really regretted not buying it though! Damn CHEAP!

3S1 was so cute! During the camp, we are pretty bonded, so I'm contented. :P Let's hope we can be as bonded as 2I1 used to be! But I do hope i1 is still as bonded... :D

Anyway, AFA'09 was not as fulfilling for me, apart from one thing. I GOT GOKUSEN THE MOVIE'S POSTER! AH! If only I could bear to paste it on my wall, I can see Kame's face everyday when I wake up...

Didn't buy anything at all, unless you count my Gacha attempt which got me an Ichigo mirror. :D Had wanted to buy Zangetsu in bankai mode, that sword looked soooo cool! And it was pretty cheap, at $4o. I really want it, but since I do not know what to do with it after buying it, I gave up. Sigh.

Ashley and Jeremy did cosplay, and Ashley's wig was so nice. You would mistake him as a girl from the back if we let his hair down! Haha. By the way, Ashley cosplayed as Kenshin from Rorouni Kenshin while Jeremy's one, I forgot. :P Had watched the concert with Ziqun, Angie, Jeremy and Ashley, though Ziqun and me had left a little earlier for my dinner. It was already past nine! Then we took separate ways home, since I had wanted to take 502 home which is the faster route.

I'm going off to study now... My Japanese test is coming soon! But before that, my movie date with Qianyu to watch Gokusen!

This post was from a long time ago, since I could not update till today. My laptop was sent for repair to Sony... And I just got it back today. :P

Sigh.
Didn't do as well after all. In fact, it must be one of my worst times. :(

English: 23/30
HCL: 79/100
A Maths: 30/50
E Maths: 22/50 (Yes, I actually failed!)
Physics: 37/50
Chemistry : 39.5/50
Geography: 20/30
Elective History: 24/25

Best L1R5: 9
Actual L1R5: 10 (when considering all the conditions)

Oh well. My mum shocked me when I told her I failed my E Maths. She just said, "Well. Failing is normal in sec sch, so just try your best next time." WOW. I thought I would be dead for an instance. Haha.

We went to order our class tee on friday, 21/8. Finally too! We had disputed over the colours, like sky blue and lime green, and Ms Tan suggested red. When we got there, we went through the colours, and thought that red was the best. So we chose that, and the design was to be in black, and our names in white on the whiteboard in the design. I thought that it would turn out nice though. :D Shall show you the pics when we get our class tee, which would be after 11 Sept... What a long wait. At least it's done.

On Sunday (23/8), I went out with WeiLin and JadeYin. :D Wah, they really dressed up nicely! So pretty. I bet I looked weird, cause I went for mature instead. Sigh. We met at Ion and walked around a bit, but since Weilin and me had not taken breakfast, we were starving and hence the search for food begun! Jadeyin and I wanted to eat buffet, but we can't find any, so Weilin went to ask the info counter... Then something super lol happened. Haha. She asked the man if there are any buffets around, then the man replied, "We don't have any shop named buffet." LOL. We then went to Sushi Tei at Ngee Ann City for lunch, and then we went to Cathay Cineleisure for the neoprints. :D I think they are quite nice leh. Haha. We then played at the arcade before going to More Than Words to shop for Jadeyin's bearbear. Lol. She wanted one that she could hug, and she wanted the membership... So after lots of consideration, I finally bought the Winnie the Pooh which I had wanted for a long time... Plus some sweets, so she did get her membership after all. Haha. Weilin then went home while Jadeyin and me went to eat dinner, which was also delicious, and then we went home. What a nice day...

Time fast-forward.

Got my CDs and book! Haha. Ordered them on Sunday (23/8), and I finally got them on Friday(04/09). :D Bought 3 CDs and one book, and all of them are in Japanese. Lol. I know I'm going gaga over them, but I can't help it. I got KAT-TUN's latest 4th album, Break the Records -by you & for you-, V6's Spirit! and WaT's 36℃... Aww. They are just soooooo good. Maybe I'd add the photos for them the next post. :D The book is Jin-kun ando Kamenashi-kun 「仁君＆亀梨君」, and it talks about the both of them, with pictures! Haha. AKAME LOVE! Though kokame is nice, while Pikame is exciting, haha.

Anyway, I believe I have blogged enough for now. There would be another in a few days, since it's the holidays. :D

NEIRO by KAT-TUN 「音色」

怖いから格好つけて
ここで話せなかった事がある
僕がここで笑えるのは
君がいたから

僕らのここで始まったstory
この屋根の下
今も　分かち合う

この光　君の優しさを
こんなにも感じてる
どれだけの　時が過ぎ流れても
帰る場所は君が奏でるNEIRO

寂しくて揺れる夜は
いつも　君に会いたくなる
君が笑顔くれるから
また　元気になる

世界で一番大切な
この瞬間が生きる
道しるべ

この光　君の優しさを
こんなにも感じてる
またいつか　この道に迷っても
帰る場所は君が奏でるNEIRO

誰も君と分からなくても
君の音聞こえるよ
ここで初めて出会った日を
I still remember

この広い　世界の片隅で
君と出会えた奇跡
傷付いて　消えそうになっても
帰る場所は僕らのNEIRO　ずっと

この光　君の優しさを
こんなにも感じてる
どれだけの　時が過ぎ流れても
帰る場所は僕らのNEIRO
帰る場所は君が奏でるNEIRO

I can't forget this song... It cheered me up from my times of depression after getting some of my results.
Haha. Barely anyone understands it though, so I'm providing translation. :D

I try to look good out of fear
I wasn't able to speak here before
But I could laugh
Because you were here

Our story started here
Under this roof
Till now, we are still sharing it

In this light
I can feel your kindness like this
Even when that much time flows / No matter how much time flows
Let's return to the place where you play that TONE

In a lonely and swaying night
I had always wanted to see you
Because I want your smile
So get well again

The most important thing in this world
Is to live on this moment
Being guided

In this light
I can feel your kindness like this
Some time when we get lost
Let's return to the place where you play that TONE

Even if you're with someone doesn't understand you
I can hear your sound
We had met for the first time here
I still remember

At the corner of this wide world
My meeting you was a miracle
So even if we get hurt and seem to disappear
Let's return to the place, our TONE, forever

In this light
I can also feel your kindness
Even when that much time flows.
Let's return to the place, our TONE
Let's return to the place where you play that TONE

My Japanese isn't good, so maybe there is some mistakes... And my English may not be very fluent. Oh well, I tried my best. :D
Oh and my results so far...

EL - 23/30
AM - 30/50
Chem - 39.5/50
Phy - 37/50

Sigh.

[Anyone can be offended by the post. So I placed a line after which it would be mostly neutral.]

I was really pissed at my class.
Some of them were just so disrespectful. And insincere.

When someone is talking, shouldn't you try to at least show some amount of respect and listen to what that person wants to say? Isn't that basic courtesy? What's more, if the class is discussing about the class tee, which concerns EVERYONE in the class, shouldn't you pay more attention and participate actively in the discussion? Don't even try giving useless suggestions, you know fully well that it is definitely infeasible. And even if you want to joke, please, do not go overhead with your jokes.

One of the reasons why the class tee is not ready or done until now is because no one actually gave a lot of thought to it. Yes, including me. But so what if I didn't? I had already done my best in being the class monitress by helping the class and teachers out. But worrying over things that the class can't even be bothered about? I'm certain I didn't sign up for this. I know I like being an authoritive figure, and this post given to me is certainly what I like, but please, cooperation is still needed from the people around me.

I know no one is happy with me being the monitress, that is why no one listens to what I want to say. I believe that whatever I do, I have the class' interests at heart. I do not simply throw a comment around and leave it at that. So do me a favour and help me out. Even if you do not want to participate, just go to a corner and chat quietly, no need to alert the whole class about what is going on in your discussion.

I was really pissed that day. The first time I am this year, with the class... I always hold the fact that 3S1 is the best class in the level in my pride. Yes, despite not being the triple science class. But other than our results, is that any trait that can also deem us as the best?

Anyway, if anyone is reading this, I hope you understand me as this was what went through my head during the free periods. If you want to know more about the class tee, details should be found in the class blog.
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I have enough worries myself. Common Test 2 is already here, and I am trying my best to do well. I cannot afford to play much longer. My results slipped a lot last term, and I am determined to pull them up this time round, despite the risk of failure. So that I can return to my state as like in Term 1. Where I can still see more than 5As in my result slip. I do not want to lose to some others.

Had 3 papers already so far. English wasn't as easy as before, but well, I can't do anything, and besides, it's managable. It's vocabulary and summary, which you can't study. Wait a minute, you can't study for English at all. Oh well. HCL was ok, I should be able to have an A1. Should, not WILL. See the difference? :P As for A Maths, lucky for me, I left the modulus questions all for the last, so even if they changed the question, it didn't really affect me much. But I'm just hoping for a pass.

Good luck to me and everyone! :D