Had guitar lessons in the morning, was late because of no reason, haha.
I don't seem to be able to actually reach there on time though, since I started learning.
Either I'm too early, or too late. Don't think I'll be continuing if there are theorys and practicals to take. Not that I don't want to, my parents expressed their reluctance already, before I started. So if there are exams, I'll not go or stop the course, and learn myself.
I really want to see how far I can go after learning the basics. You could say I'm full of myself... Sigh.
Went to watch Alvin and the Chipmunks today, at 7.40pm... JP Golden Village.
Gosh, it was so funny and cute and sad and amusing, all at the same time! Definitely a 5-star!
Love the little chipmunks, like when they say, "Hey, we aren't squirrels, we are CHIPMUNKS."
Lol. That made me laugh so hard. They are really so cute!
The songs are great too, I like "Bad Day" and "The Chipmunk Song (Christmas Don't Be Late)", and many others. Because of that, I went to buy the OST! Haha, I'm quick, ain't I?
URL: Alvin and the Chipmunks OST.
I've uploaded the album on my multiple webpage, so go download it!
Gtg, I've got lots to do for that birthday party of mine.

FYIs:

Address: JE St32, BLK 314, #08-229.
For people taking buses, after seeing Jurong Primary, press the bell and alight. It should be the second stop after Fuhua.
Time: 10.30am (or anytime after) - 5-6pm. It really depends on you guys.
Any other extra info, please sms me asap! Ill be leaving my phone switched on almost the whole day everyday now.

**New update: Party changed to Friday, same time.
Have you guys opened your presents yet? I was so shocked to see a 2GB MP3 when I opened my presents... Haha.
[updated on 24th Dec, 11pm, an hour away from Christmas.]

Since Chirstmas and my birthday are just around one, two weeks away, I'd thought that I would make a wishlist for myself. I know it's late, but never mind. Who cares?
What inspired me, you ask?
Well, the answer's today's happening...
We had to perform for the Sec 1 Registration too... And hear the crap Mdm Oen and the rest were saying... Sigh, my ears are too tender to take the torture anymore...
Anyway, we blew Big Fun in the Sun with actions, of course. Jason was the one conducting, though I don't really understand his conducting, never mind.
And they go blah blah blah, then we pack up and left at around 10.37am, yes I remembered so clearly! What surprised us was...

Mr Ben Lim came back.

Just before we played too.

Obviously everyone was shocked beyond words, even me. We were all grinning like idiots too, maybe just me. Well, he did let us down by not coming for the concert... Which is very sad. But he turned up today! Yay! Everyone's morale was risen quickly, and I guess we did well. The piece was a lively piece after all.
Well, I was rather happy today, since I get to wear my band uniform for the first time. It was nice, I think... A red vest, white shirt and dark blue skirt with some red pleats. Look formal though, but I love it. First CCA uniform you know... The rest are just some stupid ccas with nothing to wear but school uniform.
Mr Lim was with us too, when we fall out. Yeah, he didn't change at all. He was still like last time, fussing over our attire, etc. Ha, well, at least he still cares about us, and I'm moved. He said we played quite well too! And Jiexiang countered that later though, argh.
After band, Mae and I went to JP. We shopped around for things, and Mae kept saying, "Buy this for Jiexiang!" Argh, I wanted to buy something for the whole section, not him!
Later, I accidentally let slipped that I ... ... with a certain someone. And then Mae started saying, "Buy this for ..... and Jiexiang!" Gosh, you could I was pretty pissed. But then I saw lots of things that I wanted... After that, we left for the library, where I returned books and ate lunch at the cafe there. Then, the both of us took 157 home... After shopping, I realised that I wanted lots of things, for Christmas and my birthday. Here's the list, haha:

1. A hat or something similar to a pageboy's cap but more girly kind... from 77th Street. [umm, ask Mae, she knows.]
2. A necklace carved with his name given by ... ...
3. A mini saxophone or a guitar from that shop selling cute little stuff, on the 3rd floor.
4. A name necklace, from Gift A Name[?]
5. Teppei's picture cards from Comics Connection. Poker cards are welcomed, hehe.
6. A couple of BLEACH things from Comics Connection.
7. A necklace with a guitar pendant, or musical one.
8. Another nice wallet? Perhaps.
9. A cap with a skull on it, more to the girly side one.
10. .... confession from him!
11. V6's latest single, Way of Life, Jacket B, First Press Limited Edition.
12. Tackey&Tsubasa's latest best complilation.

Anyway, I really wanted the cap... It was so nice, yet not very cheap. The rest, I've wanting them for a long time already. The wishlists on our blogs are pretty useless, right?
I'm having a birthday party on Saturday, 29th Dec. Anyone interested in coming? time is not confirmed, but maybe I will confirm it in my next post.

Gosh, what a exciting day yesterday was!
Yep, we had our first band concert ever, and it was a success!
Apart from Xunyan's ultra loud playing during Pirates, the band did great!
Okay, enough of the exclaimation marks. It's driving me crazy.
Well, I think I should relate everything to you, to be fair.
We were supposed to fall in at 11.30am, to check attire and all, like loading the instrumenta and all. I was pretty excited since it was our first public performance, and my second performance, not counting that diastrous playing on Racial Harmony Day, Simple Gifts, in fact. Sigh.
Yifan and I met on the bus and we were off to school. It was on purpose, by the way... Haha.
We were to fall in and then, Ms Lai let us off section by section, since we need to bring everything over. I brought my bag along too, placing the music stands in it and boy, it was heavy! I thought my bag will give way too. Carrying my instrument, I followed Yiling and the rest to the bus, and placed my instrument on the seat, hehe. Not taking any chances ok... Oh yah, the Sec4s are back being SLs, though Jiexiang and Jason are still in charge, together with Kokkeong and Boonsiong. We had fun on the bus too, joking lots and all with the rest of the section, though Weewu and Weiquan were acting a little emo. Qianyu said so, not me, hah.
Benjamin Liew met us there, since he overslept. Sigh, at least he's just Ms Lai's secretary. I chatted and joked around with Yiling, Qianyu, Jiahe and Chienwei of course, though I don't know where is Jiexiang... With the lorry? Never mind.
Soon, we reached the auditorium and began setting up our instruments and warming up. Then, they started their rehearsal. We acted out Morning Madness, blew for Legend of the Eagles and Sock Hop Tonight. Practicing getting on and off the stage was confusing, since Jiahe was supposed to be in front of me... [In the end, he was not... In the concert, I mean.]
Our lunch was cold too, a chicken burger. Lucky me, I ate sushi my mum bought on Saturday night as breakfast, and I was soooo full too.
Skipping all the parts till the actual concert now, it's not much of a fun.
Around 4.30 I think, my parents arrived! Argh, I have to run all the way up there to meet them too. Tired already...
Soon, the concert began... Junwei and I went to where the tubas were, hiding at the so-called backstage, which was actually just beside the stage, and was hidden till our skit in Morning Madness. Oh god, I acted as a tree in front of everyone! Argh, the horror!
Anything, just before the concert, we chatted a bit with Jiehan... Haha, he was so naughty to hide a bottle of water too! He's such a nice senior too... Ok, the others weren't bad too. The main band played Jericho, then Simple Gifts and soon, it was Morning Madness.
After the skit, which made the audience laughed, we ran to backstage where we began wearing our blazers, oh did I mention that we wore black shoes too, just arrived on Thursday.
Our attire was a blazer, our school uniform, school tie, black socks and shoes. All the rest will wear band uniform, and the girls with tied-up hair have to tie red ribbons too.
We got ready our instruments and lined up near the exit, when the seniors were playing Grease. Oh, I could hear Jiexiang's solo... Nice. Then, the seniors came in and we were off on stage. Just as I had mentioned just now, Jiahe came up late, just after Jiexiang walked there, who was conducting for us, Ms Chong took the main band. Chienwei took over his job of standing up first too. Later, Jiahe told me that he was rather tired and panting, which was why he didn't blow the first few parts of the piece, haha, poor Jiahe...
Next was Sock Hop, and I've got soli parts, which meant section only, or rather, feats. I think we were rather soft, but never mind... Soon, it was the interval.
Went to find my parents again too, gosh, they haven't eaten their dinner too... Poor fellows. I did pass them my squashed-up bread though, haha. Then, I heard the crazy gang, inclusive of Leyi, Maggie, Yian, Mandy and Bessy, I guess, can't remember, calling me. Gosh it was embarassing alright. Then Angie and Wuying called me too. Sigh.
The alumni band was up next playing Thank You For The Music, and Do Euka Vol. 1. The conducter was Seklin, of course. She was great! Though I want to hear her play... Maybe she could come join us for sectionals next year?
Mae and I went over to sit with Angie and Wuying, since there were seats there... Rouyi and Yifan had disappeared. The main band was up next, playing Concerto D'Amore, Animation Songs Medley, Pirates of The Carribean and Big Fun in the Sun.
It was sooooooo great! Alfred was the one playing the solo part in Animation, and he didn't break down! Heard that Ms Chong gave a thumbs-up too! Oh I was so touched...
I almost cried when hearing Concerto D'Amore and Animation Songs Medley. I was so touched by the band sometimes. Soon, the concert "ended", and we yelled, "Encore!" tons of times too, Ms Chong was pretty funny too. Some guy up there was yelling the loudest too. Dunno who.
The band played Go West and the school song for the encore pieces, and not many knew it was the school song. The same guy yelled, "Fuhua!" when it was the chorus too, argh, I'm embarassed.
Finally, the concert really ended, and I went to meet up with some of the old gang... Then I went to pack up and we were ready to head back to school. We joked along the way, and carried our instruments and placed them in the sewing room for future use on 17th Dec... Our next performance is for the Sec1s next year, and I'm promoted to a senior! WOOTS!
We fall in for the last time as a full whole band, the Sec4s opposite of us, and we were dismissed. Then we took section photos too. Not really, without Weewu, Weiquan, Jiahe and Chienwei, they went off first... Sigh. Only Jiexiang, Yiling, Ben Liew and me... Yiling asked Jason to take the photos, but we ended up too far and they were bickering, haha, so cute.
After that, we bidded farewell and the four of us went off. Yifan wanted to eat dinner, so Mae accompanied her while I went home with Rouyi. Then she forgot that her wallet was with Weijie, and I had left my Japanese elementary 1 textbook at the backstage, sigh. Hope I can get it back... Soon. We ran like mad people, then I stopped at the carpark, waiting for her to get back.
Then we crossed the road, I did checked whether Ms Lai was there first though, and we took 98 home...

End.

We did seem busy, right? Haha. Love the fact that my posts are getting longer, and I found Lisa, Jinni and Shirley's blogs! WOOTS! Love them! We used to hang out last year, in 6E. Mind you, Jinni was the top scholar in my primary school... They are in very good schools now, Jinni in RGS, Lisa in Nanyang Girls' and Shirley should be in RV... Only I chose a neighborhood school...
Boonping, Maggie were in my class too... And they chose Fuhua. Next year is my third year of being in the same class with Boonping, and Maggie's transferring out soon. It will be my 7th year of sharing classes with Aikseng, Chiting... Though Ashley reminds the only one who had shared all of my primary school classes. Miss him lots, and Gary, and the old gang. We used to hang out together as one big group... Boy, it was fun... Those halcyon days.
Going to read a fanfic, named Whelp, before I sleep. It's about Severus adopting Harry after saving him from the Dursleys, who had treated him like a house elf and a DOG, days before Sev came rescuing. They did tied a leash and collar around him too! Oh my poor little Harry. Like the name, Harry James Severus Snape, all tradition, placing the dad's first name as the middle name of the child. And Harry's really his son right from the beginning, with blood ties.
Going out tomorrow with Yifan to watch Enchanted, at Lot 1. Our movie date, just the two of us. Well, we can't contact Mae, and Rouyi might call too many people... I wanted to call Ben Chia and Jordan, but Ben said he don't feel like going, so we didn't ask Jordan either... Oh well, better sleep soon so tomorrow the two of us can go crazy! I LOVE YOU YIFAN!

Looking back on my posts was a little fun, least to say...
It certainly reminds me of my past events, and of course, feelings.
I guess something is wrong with me when I was writing in my previous post... the second previous one. I would like to clarify things, which had given misconceptions to some people. Guess only Aizhen visits my blog nowadays, just wanna say thanks to her. And I don't go blog-hopping. Let's just say I'm busy with fanfics?
Anyway, I sure sounded angry. And despo, which was not what I wanted to actually express myself. Besides, it's not as if I don't have friends in class. Nicole and the rest make good company too. Maybe I wasn't being fair to the others. After all, it's still little hard to accept the fact that we aren't such good friends anymore. Was anyone offended? Sorry.
But still, I just don't understand how others can just, erm... hate me? I seriously don't know a better word. To me, I'm seem to be rather quiet in a sense, seldom mixing around and a bit emo? A loner too, I think. Sigh, that thought alone makes me cry.
Fine, guys, hate me all you want. I don't care about pride anymore. I just wish I could find someone to depend on in hard times. People say friends are forever, but is that true? No one can actually prove it, can they?
And no, I'm not saying that Sonia or Coco are making puke or whatever. They aren't that hyper, are they? I'm saying people like, never mind, you guys don't know her anyway. Oh yah, I typed that wrong thing too. It's not hyper, it's bossy and a little hyper sometimes... Like .... from that school. Am I like that?
Calling themselves foursome... I guess that wasn't wrong too. I once called the four tallest girls in my class back a few years ago the 4 tall ones of ... That was till p3, since one transferred out at the end of p3... And we played the lame king and his family games too... Though it was almost half the class. I guess, I'm so hateful sometimes, nah, just hate me, people. Sometimes, I wish all these wasn't happening to me. Then again, if it did not, am I even alive? To say that life is unfair? Nah people, sometimes, it's just that life is the way it is. Seriously, you wouldn't think of applying that method of .... you watched at Mdm Rafidah's house.
If anyone still hates me or whatever after reading all these crap, I suggest you stay far far away from me, there's seriously at least 75% that you will be pissed by me again.
I'm not going for pity or whatever, I just want to make it clear that, I DO NOT HATE ANYONE. If I do, it's just a moment of folly? Nah, that will sound like I'm pushing away the blame.
Anyway, I don't suppose people will actually believe me. Do as you like, I have given up on this world. It's all fate, if it decrees you that we can't be friends, then I'm sorry. Don't bother cheering me up either. It just doesn't work. I will always have the subconscious thinking that it's all an act, sorry. I miss all the fun we have had... The hard times and all.
Was is something I said? Or anything I did? Guys, if you dislike any point of me, please tell me. I want to change for the better. It's just... so difficult. Without... Sigh.

Someone, kill me now. I don't want to live anymore.

I just don't possess the courage to do so myself.

This post was made just to clarify people's questions, or anyone else's if they happen to read it. I hope that you guys understand it now. I just want to live my life in peace.
I just want friends. SORRY to all.

If you are asking why am I posting this, let me tell you. I just read a touching fic which had inspired me to reflect on my past actions. It was certainly enlightening... And sad. Characterdeaths, angst... Abusive people are the worst kind of human beings. They are such beasts, aren't they?

I just want to apologise again. SORRY, people.

PS: Hey, my posts are long again.