I'm really very very tired this week, or now.
Anyway, there are a couple of good news too.
We had band on Monday, causing me to run 6 rounds that day, I know it isn't much, but it was cause of my muscle ache this week. And it still hurts a lot.
We had to present our play to the class too, and it sucked. I think, as I wasn't really good. Heck, I didn't even memorise my lines. Just said it off my mind, and remember to say similar things next time, so you will hear my lines changing every single time I acted it out.
On Tuesday, we had our full-dress rehearsal. However, on that day, we changed the role played by ZhenYang to Kenny, since he was there and ZhenYang was not. Argh, but Kenny is really good too. And so, we practiced and practiced, but were somewhat not confident at all, since we think that the other classes were better than us in terms of everything. They were: 1R4, 2I3, 2I5. To think I have friends in every single team. Haha, we are competing against each other. I know JunJie and JianXing the best amongst them, with some of the band members in the teams too. Anyway, we went home with a heavy heart.
On Wednesday, the rest of the team were pretty nervous. I was a little irritted with their behaviour though, especially with AiJing. She would act as if she was soooo great. That irritated me, even it was normal. And at the others for wanting to change the script at the last minute. Argh, this was not your typical free-style play! We did acted out the additional part though, in case you didn't realise. It was the part where I defended Angie against Kenny, quarrelling with him. Then ShiNan would shout, 'The police is coming!' Yes, ShiNan and JinFei were at the backstage, 'helping' us to pon English. Jinfei was supposed to clap when I 'slapped' Angie and ShiNan to shout. They were to help us move the props too. After all, we helped them to pon class... That scene actually caught me offguard, when Kenny retorted me... But we managed to pull it off anyway. We were pretty noisy at the backstage too, talking and talking. That was the only to kill time, as we were anxious about the results. JunJie's team said that we were good, but I loved their jokes... Guess you guys already knew of the result -- We are the Champions!
Yeah, it's weird, since Mdm Rafidah used that as our email address. Angie told me of the teacher's plan for us to participate in 2009's SYF though, but the 4 of us are already training for SYF... Javan and me are in band, Angie choir, AiJing Chinese Dance. Poor Kenny, he would benefit from this though. He's in what, NCC?
My ties with the seniors are getting better too, like we can joke around with JieXiang, JiaHe, fool around somehow with QianYu, talk about school with ChienWei and DanLim of 3S4 I think. Forgot her class, but Alvin respects her... Lol. We got a new member too, YanYee of 1R2 bah... Can't remember well, but she pon band on Wednesday, same as AikSeng.
Alas, it's very late now, and I still have school tomorrow. Gotta go and sleep now, my legs still hurt like hell.

PS: My seniors said that I was good in acting, Mdm Tay said that too, and Mdm Rafidah said that I'm a all-rounder! Woots, I'm so happy... Shit, it's getting into my head... Must calm down... Must calm down... Must calm down...

Was on mc on Wed, played the com for almost the whole day, haha.
Anyway, Leshan, Chingyee and Xiuyi came over yesterday to finish up the powerpoint presentation we had to do for the brochure... I love the fonts, it's CRAZY KILLER and Harry P.
They looked so nice together...
Got a challenge from Chiting, regarding my fanfic. She dared me to write a one-shot about SessInu, may be on anything... I'm planning on self-mutilation, but I'd love to write a mpreg one. It'd be so amusing, but disgusting for people who don't like gays.
I love them. Lol.
Still in the process of writing, since I can't be bothered to take it out to write at home. Besides, my homework aren't done yet. Tomorrow, we are gonna have a drama rehearsal, clashing with band prac, argh, I wanna go band, but sectionals instead. Then, Fabian's friends and girlfriend will be coming for PW. Haha, I love making fun of them. Besides, she's JunJie's sister, the one in Chinese Dance and Badminton, of Sec 2 this year. He joined the competition too.
Went to my first JPS Alumni Gathering today at 7pm, were asked to volunteer for the Family Day-cum-Homecoming Day. Ben Lee, Jian Xing, Chi Ting and Terrace are in my group, I'm the leader, again. We will be just giving early bird goodies... Haha, we are slackers. Will have to leave band that day again, it seems that I have to do so lots of times recently.
Talked to Gary for about 10mins before being ushered into the conference room. We talked lots, like why he wasn't there, and etc... The topics are very funny, and I was happy. Yep, I am contented. I met lots of my old friends too... Like Ashley, Maria, Nazma and etc...
After the meeting, we sorta like gathered in the old foyer-part of Boon Lay Pri, a space near the basketball court. There, we talked lots and before going home, all those who knows, mostly band members from everywhere, had a mass fall-in.
Ashley, Ben Chia and the rest, including me and Javan, joined in. I'm not sure, but I'm the only girl there who really knows this kinda stuff. Haha. Ben Chia shouted out the commands, and I shouted all the responses, being the loudest. Lol, I'm not that lively in band too. But everything just came like that, I really feel like myself after a long period of hiding. Except not liking some people now, like Eisabess. No offence, but I think she's more bossy now, probably worse than last year, since I only know her for a year, like Javan. But I'm definitely closer to Javan than her now... Haha. Javan is sooooo funny. Like Ashley.
Gotta go now, have band and drama rehearsals tomorrow... Cya!

PS: Walked home with Danlim today, after my HCL test... Gave me a talk on school, which helped me understood more about the system... She's really clever, and a good senior. Knew her since I was in Pri 1, and our brothers are great friends. Haha, see, I got so many good seniors! Lol, anyway, just wanna say thanks a lot to her...

We didn't have band yesterday though, because of the listening comprehension the seniors have. But I did have a surprise.
I was chosen to participate in the drama competition conducted by the MT department... Argh, so much for computer time! AiJing and Angie are in my group, and the first rounds were today, Tuesday. Javan, BoonPing and ZhenYang were in it too. See, out of the 6 of us, 3 of us are from Jurong! We are sooooo dramatic. Went to AiJing's house to practice more too.
I hadn't been feeling so well since Sunday, and I wasn't too yesterday...
Hence, I'm gonna be on mc tomorrow, haha.

Well, it has certainly been a busy week. Sorry for not updating, but I shall make it up for it now.Firstly, let us venture into Monday's adventure...:
We had band today, and we were all anxious about Wednesday's performance. It is going to be my first performance though I'm not sure whether I'm gonna play the song either. Maybe it's just an experience of performing as a band. My real performance will be at the end of the year...
On Tuesday, we had sectionals... YiLing saw us and came over to join us, but she was visibly disappointed with us not playing songs. After all, the performance was tomorrow! I was a little angry too, but never mind. I can't play well too. Poor JiaHe, he couldn't transpose fast enough to my scale. Anyway, they are nice to play accordingly to my scale though, JieXiang is so pro!
On Wednesday, we had our performance, and it was bad. Really bad, I guess. LeeCheng and AiJing quarrelled over this too. Because she criticised us...
And so, the week passed in norm, except for HCL lesson on Thursday though. It was easily said, one of the most interesting lessons with her around... We were to act out a little scene with our groups of three... I took on the role of "Big Brother", since guys are much easier for me to act...
Anyway, I've not been feeling very well today...


PS: Gosh, I went to watch Harry Potter and the Order of Phoenix on Friday, it was fantastic! Apart from the fact that it can be better, it was really good. Dolores Umbridge was really hateful with that stupid collection of cats in plates, and all. I love the part on the Department of Mysteries concerning about the prophecy though... And the part where Harry was struggling to get Voldemort aka Tom Riddle out of his body... Go watch it!

This week hasn't been great too.
I'm still lonely, and now, what's worse, XiuYi and ChingYee are ignoring me.
I'm really lonely now, no one cares anymore, I guess. Even at band prac, they didn't really talk to me... I'm trying very hard to stop cutting already, haven't did it for days...
But still, I'm left alone.I'm still shunned by them, always being alone in school. Not only has this made it worse, I'm always crying uncontrollably nowadays. I can even 'conjure' up tears any time I want. ChingYee seems to look at me with hateful eyes too. Gives me the feeling that she is looking at vermin. Though we chatted yesterday, she is till like that. Not only that, many others as well. I'm heading for a one-way trip to a mental breakdown.
Why is this happening to me, what have I done wrong? I don't know, only Heaven beholds the answer...

Another news, we are performing on Wednesday, in conjunction with Racial Harmony and the visit by the China people. We are performing 'Simple Gifts', I think. We, the Sec1s, were thrown into the main band just days ago, and were told to perform next week. Gosh, and it's my first band peformance! Sigh, I brought my instrument home for practice, and I found out that if I blow the same tune using the recorder, I can blow faster, like the exact tempo of the piece...
Alas, I can only practice more with my saxophone then...

Well, since no one's gonna be friends with me anymore, I'm harbouring the thought of transferring school. At least, I can go other schools with my current results.
However, I just don't wanna leave you guys, even if you hate me... I dunno how long more till I will breakdown, but when that happens, I'm needing a counsellor. Serious. But I refuse company because of pity, never. I'm not that pathetic. I want, need real friends. Someone that sincerely cares and stays by my side. It's not that hard to ask of someone to be like that. I'm been doing it for years, and no one appreciates it. They just threw me aside after healing. I'm just that pitiful.
School's been really horrible for me. If this continues, I don't think I will be just cutting. I hope not, though.

Went to AiJing's home today... Just for a fun day, lol.

Well, we played her saxophone a bit and then, we went down to teach me rollerskating. I only fell once, on my butt, and it's gonna hurt for a few days... Boohoo.
Another inportant, I realised AiJing's saxophone, is the E flat Alto Sax! Gosh, and mine is the B flat Tenor one... Sigh, but anyways, the fingerings are the same, everything is the same, only the pitch and the size and its scale. I taught her the correct pitch for each note, how to read the notes and all the easy stuff. It was fun, of course, since I love music...
After the visit, I went to JEC to meet up with my family for dinner, while my bro and dad went to watch the movie, Transformers, and my mum and I went to the library to get some books. I couldn't find any of my favourite comics, but I did found a vocabulary builder on Japanese; How to sound intelligent in Japanese, and Wolf, a movie novelization of the Mandarin movie starring Jimmy Lin, my idol and Ambrose Siu Young... Yay! I love Jimmy Lin! My idol in the Chinese Pop music industry... Together with 5566... Korea, maybe Rain bah... He's really good in dancing! I love his style, but not his body, lol.
I'm trying to copy the whole of the vocab builder, so I won't be posting soon, maybe.