We had to go out to get donations today, in conjunction with Flag Day...
My class, together with 1R2, were supposed to be stationed anywhere in the Boon Lay area.
My group, which consists of me, AiJing, PeiXuan, HuiChoo and Nicole, were at the bus interchange. It was certainly a long day, having to ask for donations. However, I just stood there waiting for some people to donate, and sure enough, they did and I don't even need to ask...
Well, as to regards of my previous post, I guess I was too emotional at that time... I'm trying to control myself... But it maybe too late, I'm a regular cutter using blunt objects, thank God for that. Some day, when I'm busy, I would forget about it totally... So, I sincerely hope that it will help. Thanks for caring about me, guys...

PS: It's a short post today cause I'm tired, plus, my hands hurt.

Sorry for not updating during the past few days... But school's really been busy.
Got lots of homework just for the first week, and had a trip to the science centre for a lesson too.
Well, school hasn't really been great for me...
I feel lonely.
It seems to me that everyone's hating me, or just leaving me all alonely by myself, like a lost sheep. No one cares, and I'm feeling miserable. Even ChingYee and XiuYi did that unknowingly, but I'm not planning to let anyone in on it. Even though I'm blogging, I'm treating it as my diary.
It may seem to be depression to you, but I can assure you that it's so not.
I think I seriously need to escape from reality now, or some time later. I feel so odd, and sick... Sick of my lonely self, sick of myself thinking of negative matters... It doesn't matter if I'm good in studies or not, nothing ever helps. Nothing did.
I really wished that I can slit my wrists sometimes, but I don't want to destroy my future. Only did it with something blunt, so it creates a red line over the area, nothing serious. Using my fingernails helped a lot too... I just feel like that, and don't try to do anything to me about it, I'm gonna fix this up myself... Heck, even Eugene hasn't spoken to me since Sunday when we... erm, chat? Anyways, I shall lock myself up in my virtual world and put up a mask... Hope that it cures my depression state. Writing helps, but singing sad songs just release my floodgate. But singing helps, though when it comes to happy songs, I just can't... I can't sing them anymore. Gosh, now I feel like crying again. Guess reading sad fanfics do contribute to it...
My only available escape in school now is to read my books, especially since I bought Bleach: Memories of Nobody Novelization [Jap]... It helped to distract me from my thoughts as I need to figure the words... Well, it's late now, and I've to go sell stupid flags in public tomorrow morning... and need to entertain my dad's Japanese boss in the evening too... My homeworks' not done yet too. And I haven't asked for permission to go to AiJing's house to teach her a little of the ternor sax, and to learn about rollerskating too.
Ja ne, oyasumi nasai. I'll be here always, till the day I fade away into the silhoutte...

We just had 2 band practices these few days, one on Monday and today...
Monday one was the worst, all the way till 5pm plus some drills and running... Argh!
We had sectionals in the afternoon and after all ended, we had to learn some drills... Then, we had to run 2 rounds around the school... Argh, I lagged behind and ended up almost running a 3rd round, thank God Jiexiang told me to stop, if not I'd be strolling around the school and will be back to find no one there, though there were people behind... They fled. Alright, I admit that I was strolling when I realised I couldn't win Jason any more... Who cares, an extra round doesn't hurt if I take my time to do so...
Today, it was better, But we had to go into the AVA room to practise instead. All because of a stupid meeting... It was weird doing it in there, not that we didn't, but only Sec1s were there, today the whole band was there. And boy it was squeezy... Haha.
We played some of the Standard Book of Excellence, and then we were off to play "You're Beautiful", the one on the animation Medley, namely 君をのせて[kimi wo nosete], 鳥の人[tori no hito], 帰らざる日々(に?)[kaerazaru hibi (ni?)], and one I couldn't remember... Oh well, and yeah, Pirates of the Carribean: Dead Man's Chest... Cool but diffficult and exhausting... Sigh.
I love 君をのせて, there are parts where it is very sentimental... I almost cried when I heard it the first time... Lol. Anyway, I'd be practising if I want to be good. There is another practice on Saturday, from 9am - 1pm, sectionals only. Guess they wanna test our standard now... God help me!
I've only one homework left, the HCL one of course... Damn it, it is so troublesome! I'm planning to use the Sims2 pictures for the pictures... Haha, I'm lazy and planning to use that as an excuse to play games, but I'm also encountering problems... I can't get them to marry in order for a particular part of the interview! Guess I'll have to create a new family and do it all over again... Fine, I'm free anyway... (As if!) Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh-!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm feeling tired and sore now, from all the walking I've done today, plus being seated in a really uncomfortable seat on the bus today... But I must insist in posting... Dear me, am I reading too much, why do I sound like (or rather, type like) some English pro... I'm not one anyways.

Well, today was really tiring after walking, for I was the one who suggested to go shopping today. After all, I haven't left the house for days... Like a prisoner? Nah, I was struck to the computer, as usual... And I haven't finish my homework, ahhh-!

I'm not really worried, only 2 more left. Two, tedious ones in fact. The geography one and the HCL project. I'm not entirely sure about it though. Darn those teachers for giving us homework.

Can someone tell me what are we supposed to collect for Maths? Please?

Anyway, I went to Orchard today. Just feel like going there all of a sudden, well, I'm been like going there every single week since I started my Japanese course... More than a year already, plus, minus some months. It will be 2 years this coming August. And my new course doesn't start till 5th August. Poor me, Mizusaki sensei, you are so naughty! And you promised to let me into your class!

First stop was my Jap school, of course, as I needed to collect my receipt for the course fees. If not, they might forget that that I've paid $252 with GST for the course already. Sigh, the stupid GST hike is killing me! I'm not rich, you know. And when the next Harry Potter book comes out, we'd all need to pay 7%GST instead of 5%GST, sigh... This is crap! What is the government thinking about, with us the poorer citizens? I know that they are rich and all, they wouldn't mind spending more money on GST, but US?! Argh! [What's going on, with me talking about the government and GST?]

Next, we went to Paragon for some food, lunch for Fabian, snacks for me. I didn't want to take lunch. However, we realised that it started raining heavily. Without any choice, we had to "brave" the rain [with umbrellas of course]. I didn't know why but I felt like going to HMV so we went there. And to my surprise, I found V6's latest single, Jasmin/Rainbow![literally Jasmine, it would sound weird if you have to pronounce the 'e' too...]

Well, of course I bought it, do you even need to ask? I did buy another album, Rain's 3rd album, It's Raining... Been finding it for months since playing Audition. Yes, it got me hooked on some of his songs... Lol, weird right? But that game has LOTS of Korean songs... But I'd prefer Japanese, at least I could understand some. Maybe I could find Rain's Japanese album instead... Nevertheless, currently I'm still enjoying V6's latest single, a little over a dozen times of hitting the play button again and again. I've finished both cds, but I simply love the single!
I will post the name/list of songs for V6's latest single here, but not Rain's, simply because I can't read majority of them. They are in Korean, after all, and I'm currently still waiting till the time I'm gonna study it. Soon, I hope.
* ジャスミン/Rainbow [V6 latest single, Normal Version, Jacket C, Japan Version]
1. ジャスミン
2. Rainbow
3. Gram-8/20th Century
4. Our Place/Coming Century
5. ジャスミン - Instrumental
6. Rainbow - Instrumental
7. Gram-8 - Instrumental
8. Our Place

They are really really good songs though... Please visit my website to download them! It's there, at the links...
Anyway, back to my 'little' shopping trip. Though I hardly think that it was small nor short. We met up with my dad and went off to OG. We went to the new John Little to shop but found nothing, just before we went OG. After shopping there, we went to Plaza Singapura, to find Starhub. There, we ate KFC and left for IMM, taking 502 at the bus stop there, thus being in it for more than an hour... My seat was really narrow, my legs couldn't stretch because the knees were already against the back of the seat in front. I groaned silently in my mind a lot too. I even joked that I was getting taller now. Not that I'm not growing anymore though, I'm more of a horizontal grower, if that's what you mean.
After eating at Baystreet21 (yays, we found it!), we went home. Thus here concludes my trip.

Sorry for not posting during the past few days. Been busy with homework and some other things. Well, I've got Geo and the HCL project left, which is quite tedious though, and it's already Friday! Argh! Should have started with my homework earlier.
Anyway, just to show you guys a work which I've done yesterday and today. I was searching for Glaring Dream's kanji lyrics, but no avail. So, I've decided to take matters into my hands.
I translated them myself.
Yes, it was difficult, but I've got the romanji and english lyrics, so it was a breeze. Here they are:
[by Kotani Kinya, Gravitation]

賑やかな人込みに溶ける呟きが
足元に散らばった思い出にじませる

迷い歩く町の輝きは Glaring One Way
凍えそうな　僕を照らす

冷たい時が夢を降らせる　この手の中を擦り抜けて
願い数え目覚めた時に揺れる　幻に君が映る
僕を導くかすかなシルエット

流される不安だけを告げる　優しさも
永遠に　満たされた　明日も欲しくない

君に届ける筈の言葉は It’s Talk To Myself
影も無く　日々に陥る

震える指で夢を重ねる　息も出来ずに崩れてく
確かな事不確過ぎて　何を信じれば　君に会える
白く消える　あの日のシルエット

淡く染まる季節を見上げる Life Winter Dream
立ち止まる　僕をさらう　

風に消される　取り残される　胸にかじかむ憧れも

冷たい時が夢に漂う　その手の中に受け止めて
願い数え目覚めた時に揺れる　幻に君が映る
僕を導くかすかなシルエット

I'm not sure whether if you are able to view them, but it doesn't matter. Just another proud work of mine... hehe. I'm doing another song, Blind Game Again, also by Kotani Kinya. Here are the romanji lyrics if you wanna refer to the above-mentioned lyrics...:

nigiyaka na hitogomi ni tokeru tsubuyaki ga
ashimoto ni chirabatta omoide nijimaseru

mayoi aruku machi no kagayaki wa Glaring One Way
kogoesou na boku o terasu

tsumetai toki ga yume o furaseru kono te no naka o surinukete
negai kazoe mezameta toki ni yureru maboroshi ni kimi ga utsuru
boku o michibiku kasuka na SHIRUETTO

nagasareru fuan dake o tsugeru yasashisa mo
eien ni mitasareta ashita mo hoshikunai

kimi ni todokeru hazu no kotoba wa It's Talk To Myself
kage mo naku hibi ni ochiru

furueru yubi de yume o kasaneru iki mo dekizu ni kuzureteku
tashika na koto futashika sugite nani o shinjireba kimi ni aeru
shiroku kieteku ano hi no SHIRUETTO

awaku somaru kisetsu o miageru Life Winter Dream
tachidomaru boku o sarau

kaze ni kesareru torinokosareru mune ni kajikamu akogare mo

tsumetai toki ga yume ni tadayou sono te no naka ni uketomete
negai kazoe mezameta toki ni yureru maboroshi ni kimi ga utsuru
boku o michibiku kasuka na SHIRUETTO

SHIRUETTO just means silhoutte... lol, funny translation. I'll be back for more posts as soon as I've finished my homework. Meanwhile, just tag, ok?
I'd like to thank Xiuyi for her present and Chingyee for always visiting my blog... And the rest of you out there too! Thanks! どうも 有難う ございます!

Argh! Just because of me playing the computer till 2am on Thrusday, or rather, Friday morn, I got banned from the computer! Gosh!
It was pure torture, you know. Try being banned from it when you have lots of homework to be done with it. But I'm still not doing my homework, haha.
Well, I did my sci exam paper slowly that day... Finished it with 3 blanks, I don't care about them. Just copy, it's 1/2 and 1 mark question by the way.
To my greatest comfort, my torture did not last till any other day. We were told that we can't play the computer for the rest of the holidays, or at least they were happy. Crap.
Saying that we betrayed their trust or whatever... Puh-lease! They didn't state that it was in effect for the rest of the holidays... The rule, We need to sleep before 12am...
Anyway, now that it was resolved, I'm back. Due to this problem, my chapter 4 is GONE.
Damn it!
I get to eat good food when we are scolded, so that day, we were scolded for a total of 3 times, since he went in the room once, then out and in and out again... We counted that as 1 time. Haha... Well, I'm busy copying down all the Japanese lyrics now onto my notebook, for the sake of reference... Since I'm not having lessons, duh...
I've decided to buy two Japanese manga, as in it's all in Japanese, to study it. I know it's weird, using a comic... But hey, it's easy this way, since you don't have many dialogues in one page...
Ja ne.

I had a visit to the saloon today. For a haircut.
However, for me, it's only the fourth or fifth time having to do so.
I guess I had visits like this when I was really young, but I can't remember anyway.
Well, I cut my hair quite short... And had a wash too.
First time, you could say. Real comfortable too... Haha.
I seldom cut my hair, if you noticed. My hair has been really long since all these years.
When I went to cut my hair in primary 5, it was really short. Just touching my shoulder.
When I was six, it was the shortest I've ever cut. Barely touching my shoulders.
Now, it's over my shoulder, but not much. I'm trying to prevent the center parting again, so I'm clipping it to a side, my right in fact.
I really dread the day I will be going to school too. Oh the weird looks that are gonna be shooting at me!

PS: I've just received a notice that I can't continue with my Pre-Advanced 2 course on Sun... Fuck! [pardon my language, I'm frustrated...] Dunno what to do with my money and course... But I've decided to stay on the waiting list to wait for the next intake. Guess it's just my luck. Now, I guess I really have to start practising my Japanese alone.

Well, since it's Wednesday, nope, it's Thursday now, since the clock just striked 12.
Haiz... We had our combined band practice today.
Well, not really... We just played with them for a while, maybe an hour or two, then we were off to practise on our own... As if we really did for the rest of the time. It is quite fun, and we kinda like trade and play each other's instruments... I tried the trombone, clarinet and flute. Besides my own, of course.
The feeling?
The clarinet felt the same as my saxophone, apart from the weird feeling of air rushing down the instrument under your fingers which were covering the holes. As for the flute, well, I did managed to blow it, quite easy if your air/breath is steady enough. But the fingerings made no sense though. Trying out the trombone was fun. I had fun blowing it, though it sounded funny. It's one of the bass instruments after all, sounding low. But real fun.., and weird. Anyways, we had to borrow our instruments home for practice. Since we aren't gonna have any next week.
It's really late now, so I've gotta go. Enjoy your holidays.

It's only Tuesday, and I'm bored... Again.Well, I've only finished my eng compo, HCL wkbk, that crappy worksheet, and the mindmaps.So, for my checklist, I've got Sci wb, exam paper, HCL project and my geo assignment to do. Damn it. It's the holidays and we can't enjoy. [Where's my Death Note? I'm gonna kill them all! *Staff at mental hospital appears and got the killer maniac under control* "Gah-! Lemmegooo! I wanna KILL!...] Ok, scratch that. It's my stupid inspiration juices at work again. They always come at the wrong place, wrong time. If not, I would have updated my fanfic long ago. However, fret not. I've got two new fics under my belt!
That is, if I have decided to type and upload them. However, Chapter 1 is ready.
Many thanks to ChingYee for reading the unfinished chapter 1 in school though. Wonder if XiuYi has read it... Hmm... She better not, seeing ChingYee's reaction... Lol.
Anyway, Ms Chong wanted us to hold our note for 15 counts tomorrow, and I'm so dead. I mean, what's 15 counts if I can't hold it for 10 counts already? Shit! Thank God I know the reporting time tomorrow.
I really don't feel like doing homework anymore. It only helps in exams, not our daily life. Right?
I did a comparison though, I was talking to my friend who is a working adult, and I knew her through my Japanese classes[did I mention that I'm always the youngest there?]. We were talking about her working life and my student life... She said she'd be a student than work 7 days a week... Man, work for 24/7? There's no way I would take that job. Then we talked about homework, which she said she has it too. But I argued with her, saying, "You get paid doing it, while we pay to do it." It's true, right? Though this isn't the right mindset.
Alas, poor me.

*Due to the fact that ChingYee said that I typed a lot, I'm ending the post here. Don't wanna be long-winded...-_-'''

Well, it's 12am now and I don't feel like sleeping yet.
This day, had passed in vain. Since I woke up at 12n [I really did.], I have done absolutely nothing. Hmm, maybe some.
I watched the television till my dad finished painting my room [It was the last], nope, he had already done it before I woke up. Watched till my dad finished clearing up stuff. Then, I was clearing my room, which was full of junk. Papers, such as my spelling list from Primary 5, lyrics from our sing-along session in the morn, worksheets here and there from my primary school years... Plus some of my old fanfics that weren't finished, nor uploaded cause they suck, were found all squeezed into my old homework files. You see, I changed a homework file every new school year and am lazy to clear or throw out the old that I left everything inside, still intact and in good condition. Then there were stationeries, some weird things here and there, and I had to throw them all out. Man, I didn't know my room was so messy, and that it could hide all this junk. Wow.
Anyway, by the time I have finished clearing everything, it was dinner. I had bathed way before doing anytime, by the way. Went to eat those dishes where you.., well, what do they called it in chinese, or dialect? Oh yeah, that thing called 'chi cha' or something... I suck at chinese and dialects, so don't mind me. Don't even bother telling me my grades. After winning the whole class in chinese for years, a sudden failure is enough to tell me that my standards have dropped. A lot. I'm no longer a pro in the chinese language, thank you. The smart alec [sorry, I don't meant to insult AiJing, it's just that sometimes, she made me pissed off.] sitting beside me is better than me in it. Truth hurts, as always. But then again, sometimes, the truth do save people in times. However, lies have its uses. Don't bother asking what I mean. Find it yourself, find the truth. [Lol, here I go again... Into one of my preaching sessions...]
Alas, I do not have time for nonsense. After dinner and rushing home, I watched "Pirates of the Caribbean, The Curse of the Black Pearl". Of course I didn't see that whole show, at the last 45 minutes or so, maybe just 30, I whisked off into the toilet. Obviously, I missed a good 10-15 minutes of the show. Argh! And it was the exciting part too. Sigh, never mind. We will get to that next time we watched it. And of course, I began playing my laptop, and here I am, reporting my day's work. Sometimes, I do really wish to write all day long, as of it's my career. I'm never good in writing anyways.
Perhaps a Death Note would make me happy. Somehow.
See my title there? It says 'Bored', and coincidentically, it is the title of the first chapter of Death Note... Man, can someone just buy me a gift?!
I'm so sick and tired of waiting... Only singing helps... Like Shuichi... Oh yeah! That reminds me.
I have just read a couple of Gravitation fanfics, and they are simply, GREAT. The way they portray Yuki, describe Shuichi in his hospital bed, god, that was so good.
I got really great ideas now... Will someone just read my fanfics? Please?
By the way, I won't updating my blog unless something eventful happens of when I feel like it. Sorry. I'm multi-tasking now... Writing my post and singing. But it's bad. My voice is bad.
Poor Fabian. He has put up with me singing whenever I feel like it. And what's worse, I'm not exactly getting the lyrics right as I'm multi-tasking... That always happens if I'm concentrating too hard. Be thankful that I'm putting my heart into writing this. Gosh, now I sound like Yuki. Or someone that I can't remember now. Well, I have band practice tomorrow, and I still can't get the time right. Guess I've to bet, and I'm betting on 2pm.
If you are curious what I'm singing, here are the list songs I'm always singing nowadays.:
1. Sen no Yoru wo Koete
2. Ketsui no Asa ni
3. ALONES
4. Sakura Biyori
5. Kizuna [Fav]
6. Boku to Bokura no Ashita
7. Tabidachi no Tsubasa
8. The Rage Beat [Fav]
9. Yakusoku
10. Glaring Dream [Fav]
11. Blind Game Again
and some others which I feel like it... And when I say [Fav], it means that I feel relaxed singing it. Or satisfaction.
I'm still trying to singing some of the songs, like Yakusoku or Blind Game Again. Well, I've just downloaded them. They are from my new anime obsessions, you see. As for Rage Beat and Glaring Dream, I sorta got into my head already. Haha. So much for favs.
Well, now I'm off to singing again... And it's really late now, almost 1am...
Guess I took too much time writing this post.
Sayonara and oyasumi nasai, or rather, ohayou gozaimasu?